Gnostic Bodies: Why Millennials Love Tattoos ~ The Imaginative Conservative

It is as if our tattooed millennials are trying to make themselves sacred creatures fallen to earth: beings who wear the secrets of the universe—known to the few—on their thighs, on their arms. They are gnostics trapped in narcissism… (essay by Mark S. Milburn)
— Read on theimaginativeconservative.org/2018/07/gnostic-bodies-millennials-love-tattoos-mark-s-milburn-timeless.html

The reason behind the ink.

This is really hard for me to do but I have been doing a lot of personal growth stuff recently and I am going to step out of my comfort zone and reveal that only a few people have known. 

My first experience with depression began when our parents got divorced. I didn’t know what was going on and I felt abandoned and thrown away like garbage. I spent the rest of my life being a people pleaser, afraid to give my opinion, stand up for my self, or even say no to people when they asked me to do something that I really didn’t want to do. 

By living this way I have a lot of anger, think Bruce Banner to HULK that is an allegory of what happens to me. Time after time, year after year, walking on eggshells, keeping a happy facade, while inside I was empty. I didn’t have any desire to do anything that I enjoyed. I couldn’t even remember what I enjoyed. 

I got to the point where I just wanted to feel something so I picked up razor blades and began slicing up my arms, I haven’t really told anyone but I got my tattoos to cover my scars and to remind me of the mental state that I was in and to never be like that again.